De Villiers’ reported offer to come out of retirement for last year’s 50-over World Cup quickly spiralled into a controversy, with the former national team captain being accused of putting himself above the team, something de Villiers admits to feeling hurt by.

Now, with the T20 World Cup approaching in October, de Villiers said he is carefully considering his next steps, with the doors seemingly open for a return should he wish to. “I am uncertain about giving a definite answer because I have been very hurt and burned in the past,” de Villiers told Rapport.

“I’ll always miss that, the adrenaline rush that you get from playing for your country, in front of big crowds and the big moments …. But I definitely don’t regret anything.”

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“Then people will again think I have turned my back on our country. I can’t just walk into the team. Like every other player, I have to work for my place and deserve it. It was very hurtful for me last year when people thought I assumed there was a place for me. I feel available, and I will give it a go with everything I have, but I don’t want special treatment.”

“I’m terribly afraid to say now, ‘yes, I’m available’, and then, in six months, my whole life has changed as a result of the virus, or other uncertainties around the world, and I have to withdraw. Then a lot of people will be angry with me again. And even if [the T20 World Cup] is not postponed, I last played cricket in January and may not be able to play for the next three months.

“My situation could change and I might get to a point where I have to tell ‘Bouch’, ‘I was interested, I would like to play a role but I’m not going to be able to play myself’. I’m afraid of such a commitment and creating false hope.”